Amante de Sol

"Music has always been a matter of energy to me, a question of Fuel. Sentimental people call it inspiration, but what they really mean is Fuel. I have always needed fuel. I am a serious consumer. On some nights I still believe that a car with the gas needle on empty can run about fifty more miles if you have the right music very loud on the radio."........................................................... ~Hunter S. Thompson~

18.10.10

The Last Full Day


Monday's tales.

Slept in some, well, until the 10a alarm went off. Man that thing is LOUD. I won't miss it. I really like my alarm in my mobile and have grown very used to it. It gradually gets louder, so it's not just an out and out BLAIRING ALARM! *shudders*
Up to do HW, and Kev to his morning 'routine' before going to his mom's. I took a shower and headed outside to enjoy the gorgeous Florida weather. I wish I didn't have to go back home, or could bring this weather with me. And my friend Kev. I'll miss having him around sometimes.

Spent most of the day doing HW and catching up in chat with my Aussie mate Paul. He was just chomping at the bit to talk to me and tell me of all his time with MissJo. It's hard sometimes to listen to him go on and on so hopefully in terms of having a relationship with her, when she already has a steady boyfriend, and often (like this coming weekend) goes to visit him for several days time. But, they have what they have and he is happy for it - someone to spend time with and more. It's what we all want - right? My worry is she leads him on to want or think there is more to it than there is. He tries so hard to impress and please her, and she does give back somewhat, but also seems to keep him dangling there - I secretly wonder if she is just using him when her bf is unavailable, as later her stuff all turns to "you know you're my friend Paul" when he wants more. There is a lot of sexual tension between them, some explored, but only to a point, then she backs off - in my mind - she's a prick tease, and possibly a user, more than a friend.

Paul becomes all melancholy when she's not around, and then takes refuge in myself and with other online mates. I guess sometimes I take refuge in Paul too. He's good like that - we can talk very openly and honestly - and always have. He's always there - online I mean - so I know if I want someone to talk to - I can just message him. Lately we've not talked as often as we had been, as school and work and then this trip have taken so much more of my time, and I really couldn't afford to log on and waste a few hours with him. (Not that chatting with him is a waste, but in terms of needing to really spend my time online on school work - then yes - it adds to my procrastination) I did pop on the other day for a few minutes and let him know that soon we'd catch up longer. Today was that day as I sat outside on Kev's front step.

Paul is 26 now, and I've known him since he was 18. He's very wise for his age, especially when it comes to women, but in some ways, such as the way it is with MissJo, he is fooling himself. He really needs his 'own' girlfriend - as he will make someone a great boyfriend as he is very doting and totally focuses on that person. He's had one more serious relationship in the past, where he gave his all and she rejected him in the end - which evidently all her friends and family told him she was a fool for doing. Ah well. She never 'gave' to Paul, she was a taker, and just along for the ride really.

Anyway, he and I chatted for quite some time, and then my friend Danielle came online all upset too - it seems the relationship she was in, which also cost her a small fortune in money, gifts and even a NZ residence, had gone horribly sour - with him cheating on her behind her back for a while, and evidently him going off to shack up with the woman and her kid. (who knows, maybe he already knew her and she couldn't give him residence, so he just used Danielle? - now that I think back to all she mentioned - this could have been the thing.) Anyway, we both were in a mood, mine due to some conversation and events over the previous days and sorting out those thoughts in my head. We had a bit of a man-bashing so to speak, reminiscing past ex's and our friend's relationships and wondering why there seemed to be so many guys out there who really just never turn out to be 'stand-up' guys.

We had a long chat and Kev came home toward the end of it - all concerned over a now due school assignment - and we both had to go take care of some things. I wished her well and told her to not be a stranger, to come chat again as I had missed her. She's another I've known for many years from when she was 19 to her present 27. These two are kind of like kids to me, but more than that, as they are long-time good friends. I only wished I could have met her when I was in NZ, but she was off with a then long-time boyfriend in Tokyo and crushed I was there and she wasn't home. She's thinking of coming to MN though - which would be a blast. Imagine me entertaining a bawdy 27yo 6'1 Kiwi chick. OMG.

Afterward, I just decided to focus on Kev, and to see if he needed anything, letting all my past thoughts and concerns of earlier in the day go, and to just take these last hours together as they come.

I wasn't able to help him, he wanted his sister's help, and she knew more of the work he needed to complete. So I kept on with some of my coursework to use the time wisely until he was ready for dinner. We were to go out, but, understandably this work came first.

Later after he sorted things, he called in our food order to YUMS, an Asian place up at the strip mall just up the road. We visited some, then it was time to walk up there. Once outside, he had a few moments where he felt very ill, but then it passed and we were on our way. Hopefully it wasn't the flu - he had mentioned that his niece told his sister she wasn't feeling well either.

We came back and he continued to work some and play some online, and I still sorted my coursework for the new class saving site links and overall course text in Word docs so I could read on the plane with no internet. I fixed myself a dish of my garlic chicken I had ordered and it proved to be very delicious - even more spicy than the same dish I get from my favourite place at home in Dull-uth.

(Today's pic is my fortune.)

Kev let his food sit as he wanted to be sure he'd keep it in. We also had Yuengling beer - he brought home a 12-pak so I could taste it - he had had a can on our beach run yesterday - but I was driving so I only had a diet coke. It was pretty good. I am not a huge fan of American domestic beers - but this one is more like a micro brew in that he said you can only get it certain places. When I get home I am going to see if perhaps any of my fave shops have made a deal with the beer devil and have it. It is light tasting.

Now he's finished and is ready to watch movies. We had talked about going to see Jackass 3D, but earlier in the evening - it's now later, so we're just going to stay here and watch something from his massive movie library. Seriously, as much as I wanted to go 'out' to a movie with Kev, I like staying in too, as we can just get comfy in jammas and snuggle up on the couch, and the beer is here too, as well as in case any other temptations arise. *wink*

G'nite.
¡Abrazos!

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